1.20.2006

your heart, felt good...it was dripping pitch and made of wood...

i don't care how mainstream & overplayed that band is, those are brilliant lyrics. that is how i feel at the moment. whenever i feel like i don't know what the fuck i'm doing, i read The Alchemist. when you listen to your heart, the whole universe conspires to help you realize your personal destiny. when all things fail i say "it's in the hands of the universe". i remember saying to my family, when we were in the ER the day my Dad died, "don't worry, the universe will take care of us." they must have thought i was crazy. but i'm not. and i knew exactly what i was saying. more importanlty, I believed it. and it's held true.
lesson learned today: never go stale. remember what makes you feel alive in an electric kind of way, and LIVE.

15 comments:

Teneisha R. S. Jones said...

what band are the lyrics from? Dont think Ive ever heard it.

I wish i was spritually open like you are. Ive never found that whole thing. Mabey its just who i am.

kat said...

who you are is so beautiful it hurts my eyes. i think i will always know you.
i wish i was as subjective as you are. weird, alice in chains suddenly came on the radio. reminds me of you!

the band is modest mouse. i never know the titles of songs. but the lyrics are great.
" your heart felt good. it was dripping pitch and made of wood. your hands and feet...felt cold and wet on the ground to me. outside naked, shivered lookin blue , while the cold sunlight refected off the moon, baby cum angels, flying 'round you, reminding you, you used to be 3 and not 2. and that's how the world began."

kat said...

by the way, i am still too stupid to post my pic. wtf? i have tried everything. i am not stupid, but am obviously missing something. gah!

Teneisha R. S. Jones said...

Oh, im a fan of modest mouse. I have a few of their albums. Don’t know why I don’t recognize it.

Kat you shouldn’t complement me so much, it will go to my head :) You are hott. When I was a kid you were one of the hot older girls.

Plus half of what I show is makeup and dye. At least most of you have the guts to not cover shit up. I have like serious issues with makeup, always have. I feel terrible and embarrassed with out it. I try to remember that everyone has there shit but that doesn’t make zits and bags go away :)I put my confidence on in the morning! Don’t get me wrong – I’m not self loathing and ungrateful - but you have to understand that you’re not alone when you feel like hiding and have nothing to wear and your hair sucks and whatever. Every girl on this planet has their tools to cope with feeling the pressures of looking perfect.

Ive gotten cold soars all my life. Talk about wanting to hide in a cave forever.

We all just have to remember that no one is as hard on you as you are to yourself.

Teneisha R. S. Jones said...

to do a pic you have to go into your account (the spot called "dashboard". And then do "edit profile" on the right. Where it says "photo url" is where you have to paste the adress of the picture you want to use. (do you have a photo hosting website like photobucket.com?)

formingnewsights said...

ten, have you ever read any spiritual books? you should start with the journey home..gives good insights on the whole "what if" point of view..

formingnewsights said...

i have becom terrible with make up too.. im so f-ing pale, so now i wear blush...but whatever..what r you gonna do?

kat said...

wow, those posts made me wicked happy.you guys are wicked smaaht.seriously. i would wear makeup if i knew how. for some reason, i can't make it work. especially lipstick. i look like a friggin clown.
photobucket! duh. i am so retarded sometimes.
meg, i am going to get that book as soon as i get paid. spent all my money getting my haircut & dyed last nite. trying out a magenta/violet strip. it is suddle and looks nice against brown. next time i will go for it i think.

going for a walk in the woods today w/ bryan. fun. i will take pictures. maybe i'll see a moose or something. our house is surrouned by 60 acres of woods. so we see a lot of shit. turkeys were on the roof the other day! coyotes wake me up all summer long. it scares me.

Teneisha R. S. Jones said...

i say dont start if you havent yet!

Meg I have read a few books....but seriuosly nothing has ever seemed real to me. You know. Everything seems like a crutch.

Magenta strips! Punk roick dude. I was gunna do blue last night but I still feel like ass.

kat said...

do blue! wohooo!
ever since i got an electric guitar i think i'm such a rockstar. der. i am a poser really. ha!
last nite i cranked up black sabbath & cranked up my amp and totally rocked out for bryan and the dog. it was fun.

you have a point about religion being a crutch.
i figured something out yesterday. love breeds love, breeds hate, breeds love. it's all connected. just like everything that works. evolution of the heart. whoa.

formingnewsights said...

kat, keep playing guitar, so next time i see you you can play me something real pretty

kat said...

i will meggie. i will play you the national anthem, hendrix style. and then i'll sing to you about trees.

kat said...

ten reminds me of amelie in that pic that shows up on postings.

Teneisha R. S. Jones said...

i use that pic alot cause people always have a good reaction to it. I think its funny and silly.

kat said...

it is very silly. especially when viewed with yor profile. female leo monkey.