lookin for my sally

Hi. Was w/o internet all wknd. Well except dial up and don't ever feel like dealing with that. Here is my to do list for week. Not so interesting, but whatev. You love it.

• change tires/oil/check brakes
• go to hair appt. (skipping the coloring part cuz am poor)
• check out several apts. in keene
• remember to take isabella to school. (jen crashed her motorcycle on sat n broke leg. scary. called ambulance from my cell for first time ever.)
• go see xmen movie
• learn "you are my sunshine" on guitar

sorry for weak post, but am really not up to a whole hell of a lot. next time i'll make some shit up.

love kat head

firing the pistol that shoots my holy pride

had dream last nite that i got kicked out of catholic school. i was always in trouble and hanging around with this punk boy and making out. it was like a never ending dream. i had to wear a stupid uniform, but i had a wool hat with a skull on it. the nuns were such bitches! at one point they took away my breakfast so i flipped and said to the head nun "FUCK YOU SISTER!" And then i got expelled and went look for that punk boy who turned out to be a scumbag so i ditched him.

i have nothing else to report at mo.
Love Kate

finally

good day sunshine!!!!! am about to go to lunch. hmmmm, think will get from aesops and then sit on sarah's roof to eat.
am moved into brothers house, but staying w/ sarah? i dunno. saw bryan last nite and tried to get him back. totally rejected. again. have to let it go but it is so hard. letting go prob feels better though, come to think of it. heart hurts.
wish i had some kind of distraction, like a crush or even a stupid fling. just one nite. but i don't. not a lot of options in area. oh well, it is what it is.
but guess what? i am awesome. and any stupid boy would be lucky to have me. so there.

fucking rain stop it!

had dream that sun came out and everyone at work started cheering and my boss and i high-fived. funny!
so i am moving to my brothers house for a bit. they suggested i take it one step at a time w/ quitting job & school and all. think i'll listen for once. will have own room. and a friggin bed! don't have much stuff, so that is a relief. here is a list of things to move with:

• guitars
• amp
• laptop
• desk
• trunk my dad made for me that has special stuff in it :)
• books
• ipod
• clothes
• tool box cuz i am such a tool
• good attitude

was online all day checking out radiohead set lists from the past few weeks. oh my christ...can't concentrate am so happy about it. double encores w/ 5-6 songs total. now thats a fucking encore.

am registering for classes tomorrow morning holy fuck. ohhh another list! here are my options:

• biology I
• biology lab
• chemistry I
• algebra/trig fucking yikes
• guitar
• photography or spanish

this is kat signing off. love.

post

another list of good things:

1. talked to bryan. we are totally cool w/ each other and are in fact officially broken up. he is such an amazing person. love him.
2. bought radiohead tix today i am so happy bout that
3. funny txt from tennis @ 2am about just leaving a porn fest
4. going to watch romy & michelle and take nap
5. excited about you chics coming to town...we talked about all of you last nite and how rad you are.

need nap now. hope am not getting sick. grr.

love, katastrophy

"I'm TRYING to drink away the part of the day I cannot sleep away."

No, things aren't quite that bleak. Sister said to take my time. I will pick up pieces when I am ready Here is a list of things that make me feel better.

1. lists
2. listening to white zombie really loud
3. listening to "polar opposites" by m. mouse really loud
4. (weird, the last 3 items on list start w/ "list")
5. potato chips
6. vino
7. text msgs from friends
8. playing guitar w/ guitar teacher and then going home and discovering that I can still do it
9. sleeping in a bed (twice this week!)
10. realizing there will always be cute boys around
11. realizing i can always move and sarah will come if i want her to. anywhere. vice versa.

kind of weak list, but I'M TRYING! YEAH, I'M TRYING to drink away the part of the day i cannot sleep away...

Love, Kat

kat said:

it's time for new post. that othre one depresses me. ugh. head high kat, head high. i love self pep talks. they are the best. love to all. i'll totally be texting the shit out of you. look out. texting is the best. it's so personal, cuz you know someone is thinking of you right at that moment. and i'm not a phone-talker, so text is just right.
going to newburyport for dinner. where is sister? lost her at pearl last nite. i love her.

So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself, It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.That is why I'm singing...

so,

i think i'm gonna take the first week and a 1/2 of June off since all you hot chics will be around.
i can't freakin wait. holy moly.
love to the next galaxy,
kat