am moved into brothers house, but staying w/ sarah? i dunno. saw bryan last nite and tried to get him back. totally rejected. again. have to let it go but it is so hard. letting go prob feels better though, come to think of it. heart hurts.
wish i had some kind of distraction, like a crush or even a stupid fling. just one nite. but i don't. not a lot of options in area. oh well, it is what it is.
but guess what? i am awesome. and any stupid boy would be lucky to have me. so there.
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ive got a graduation party and a graduation bbq you can come crash with me...in fact i dont have any plans tomarrow night for after graduation. Come celebrate with me.
ya, go celebrate with ten.. u know you are better off with out a crush, then it just complicates everything.. u are gold
ok. i don't have any plans either.
can i park at your place? can we maybe have matzo at some point? ha ha
yes you can park at my place. I have a driveway. I dont remeber if i have any matzo mix but we can remedy that easily! Will you really come? That would be awsome.
do it do it
"this is what you shall do: Love the earth and sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to everyone that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people, take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men, go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families, read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life, re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss whatever insults your own soul; and your very flesh shall be a great poem, and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body." Walt Whitman.
that walt guy is smart. haha! thanks. totally blew it bout going to boston. is anyone surprised? still new to this whole change and such and it's fucking w/ my anxiety. i get all psyched to do something, anything, then i feel like i just want to take a nap. sorry to everyone (and there are lots) i've offended. i am working on this.
also didn't drink last nite, so feel pretty good today. amazing how that works. (truth be told, i wanted to but dudes that wanted to rally have a dif idea about rallying it turns out. haha)
next post will not be so "whoa is me." baby steps...
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